Sunday, March 30, 2008


Nannie Louise (Masey) Hollingsworth went home to be with the Lord on March 30, 2008. She passed peacefully into the next life with her family by her side. She was preceeded in death by her husband, Roy Edwin Hollingsworth, and a son, Roy Charles Hollingsworth. She leaves behind a daughter, Diane Laboucane, of Medicine Hat, Alberta, Canada, and a son Nathan (Glenda) Hollingsworth of Pueblo, CO; eight grand children and twelve great-grand children; and numerous family and friends. She will be sorely missed.

Saturday, March 29, 2008


My mom called me around 12:30pm today to tell me they were going to move Grammy. We went up to be with the family for the evening, and get her settled. Grammy has been moved from the hospital to a Hospice center. It is a very nice place, with room for all of us to be with her. It is quiet and peaceful, and the staff are such wonderful, caring people. The Lord has blessed them with a special gift. (I'll write about that more when it's not midnight and we have to be back in Pueblo in the morning. We drove home to sleep and shower basically.)
She's been taken off everything except the oxygen, and they are giving her pain medicine to keep her pretty sedated so that she is not having all the involuntary movement. They have told us it will not be long, her blood pressure is very low, and she is not getting any nourishment, no IV's or anything. She looks like she is in a peaceful sleep, and has been unresponsive since Tuesday. She is basically in a coma now, it's up to the Lord how long before He calls her home. We are kind of expecting it to be sometime Tuesday, since it will be exactly three years since my Granddad passed away on that day. My dad is taking this really hard. Please pray for us all...

Thursday, March 27, 2008

So many things to blog about...

I am struggling to find any gumption to actually work at work today. In the last four days, I have closed eight of my own and one of a coworker’s cases because the clients have passed away. I know most of my clients are older and sickly, and in nursing homes, but still eight + in one week is kinda depressing. (Most were flu-related)

I finally finished another book. I finished my study book, “If I really believe why do I have these doubts?” It was a really encouraging book, and gave me few ideas for bolstering my own faith. I am going to look for some other books by this author, I really liked him!

I am looking for another study book to start- anyone have any suggestions?

I am almost finished with my fiction book (I might even get it finished today). It’s the fifth in a very good series by Karen Kingsbury and I am enjoying them.

My grandmother is still not doing well. She keeps having ups & downs. Monday she was awake enough to drink lots of fluids and even to sit in a chair, but she didn’t recognize anyone. And Tuesday was her worst day yet- she was completely unconscious the whole day- and had very agitated, uncontrolled movement all day. The gave her some medicine to try and still her movement, it worked for a little bit, but then they ended up having to move her back to the heart floor because her heart kept going into A-FIB & not beating correctly because of the medicine. I haven’t heard an update since Tuesday. I’ll have to call my mom after a bit.

And even with all the stress of this last weekend (especially Sunday and Monday), I have been soda-free for 15 days!!! :-) (Monday, I even had to give my stashed can to my coworker to hide in her desk, but I made it!)

Only a little over two weeks until we celebrate our First Anniversary! I can’t believe how time flies, it seems like just yesterday was Friday the thirteenth, blizzard before the wedding day! :-) Here's Sally's post from last year...

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Our Easter weekend.

Since we had a long weekend, for Easter weekend (I had Good Friday off...) We decided to to relax at home (for the most part). We got a few things done at home (like dishes- our dishwasher went out last week, and we couldn't get it fixed until Monday) and spent some time with our puppies. We took them to Bent's Old Fort, which is just a few miles out of town. They had a blast! Unfortunately, I only got one picture of them before my camera died... :-(

We slept in on Saturday and just vegged out most of the day. And then we fixed Fondue for dinner! It was fun & yummy!

Sunday, we ended up going to Pueblo so I could see my grandma, but we went to eat Easter lunch with my brother's inlaws (as far as family goes on my side of the family, we are closer to his inlaws than a lot of our own family...)
Here's all the kids hunting eggs (not that they really had to hunt... but they had fun). It was kinda cold outside so we hid them in the basement.

And my blog is not the only one getting a new look...

What do ya' think??? :-)

A little late...

When I posted the Easter egg hunt pics, I said I'd post some of our family pics too, sorry it's taken me so long- but so much has been happening...
So here are our family pictures (with my brother and his family and my parents).

Here's all of us together.

And one of my brother goofing off...
And can you tell who he gets it from?!? :-)

Here's my parents and my brother's family.

My parents and our "family" :-)

Here's our family picture.

My brother's family.(Mr.Cool Dude with the shades :-)

No shades...

And last but not least... The bugs! :-)

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

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I got this in an e-mail today, thought it was different...

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I got 18 out of 20.

Monday, March 24, 2008


G took me to see my grandmother yesterday. She is in critical condition, is not good at all. She is not lucid, she moans and tries to talk, but much of it is not understandable. She did open her eyed for about 30 seconds the whole time we were there, which was about three hours. The doctors still don't know for sure what's wrong with her, they only have conjectures. They think that one of the blood clots may have broken up and a part of it made it to her head, too small for them to detect with the CT-Scan or MRI. She is not presenting with "classic" stroke symptoms though, all her motor skills are fine, it's just her cognisance that has been affected. And while she's "awake" she is in like a dream-like state, and has seizure-like movements constantly. It wears her out and then she'll still for a while, that's how we know she's sleeping. It is very emotionally draining to watch it. She would respond to my brother more than anyone this afternoon, but even that was minimal. My prayers are somewhat split at this juncture. One, that God would make her well, but two, that he would just end her suffering.
And now, I need to ask for your prayers for myself as well. It seems that satan has found another chink at this emotional time. Self-doubt seems to be an attack he is using on me from every possible angle. I have been up since 1:45 this morning, my mind reeling with memories from the past. Mostly of three years ago when my grandmother told some pretty terrific stories to other family members about my care of her. It was basically her word against mine, even though I had been telling them the same thing over and over for months, the chose to believe her lies about it, instead of the truth. Satan was working in their hearts then, I believe, and seems to be lurking around to see what kind of aftermath he can stir up. My cousin, who took over my grandmother's care came to the hospital while we were there, and her husband was with her. I haven't seen him in almost three years, and was very discouraged by the way he acted today. He is a very self- righteous fellow, and holds a grudge with the best of them. I've seen it before, with the ways he treats his sister-in-law, my cousin's sister. But today I felt that slight myself, and it stung. I used to look up to him a great deal, but now find that satan has hardened his heart much more than the last time we interacted. He wouldn't even acknowledge that my mom and I were in the room, and wouldn't even introduce himself to G. My cousin, her mom, my grandmother, everyone else seems to have put the past behind them- but not him, and in his subtle way, he let us know that today. That is what satan is now using against me to keep me awake, and second-guessing my past. I know I did the best I could in the circumstances back then, and that anything I did do wrong was not intentional, and the I have been forgiven by God- but I am sitting here wondering, what if... And if I have anymore nights like this one, I am going to be miserable... not only emotionally but physically as well. If only our brains had an off switch at times...

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Prayer Request...

My grandmother (the only one still living) has been in the hospital since Thursday. The doctors don't know what's wrong with her. Most of the time she is very incoherent, not knowing where she is, or what day it is, and when she talks it's quite nonsensical. They have done a slew of tests, but they can not find anything wrong. They did find blood clots in her lungs, which are due to her inactivity (basically she gets out of bed and sits in her chair all day, only getting up to go to the bathroom or go back to bed), but that would not cause her current mental state, and there are no signs of any nerve or brain damage in any of the tests they have done. They are even saying she will not be able to live on her own anymore, that she will have to go, at the very least, to an assisted living facility.
G and I are going to go see here tomorrow. I don't want to look back someday and say, "I should have gone..." Even thought there are bad feelings and memories from a few years ago, she is my grandmother: the one I grew up down the street from; the one I ran away from home to (one afternoon my dad was mad at me and I ran down there to avoid getting a spanking :-) the one who I was close to; told my secrets to; and the one who taught me how to make pecan pies and apple crisp; and I love her still. And now that we live farther away I don't get to visit often. I pray the Lord will bless us with at least one more visit, if not many more for years to come. Please pray for her...

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Gratituesday: Spring is blooming

Yea- I know it's technically a weed, but my mom always thought they were the most beautiful bunch of weeds when we'd pick them for her... :-) But it is yet another sign of Spring on it's way! I know I've been writing a lot about being thankful that spring is coming, but it is always a favorite of mine- the new birth of everything- plants, animals (and the warmth that comes with it:-). What a wonderful reminder of Christ's love for us that these things renew, just as He renews us.
Join Laura at HeavenlyHomemakers for more Gratituesday and tell us what you're thankful for today!

Monday, March 17, 2008

Wacky Weather Weekend...

This was one of those typical Colorado weather weekends. The saying "If you don't like the weather in Colorado, wait five minutes" was absolutely true the past four days. Friday we woke up to thunderstorms and hail (pea size and only lasted about 2 minutes). Saturday was crisp, bright and sunny. Yesterday was cloudy and windy, with a little afternoon sprinkle. Today- it's snowing! :-) You gotta love Colorado in Spring! :-)
See the fun we had on our sunny Saturday! It was Bugaboo's 8th birthday. We went to the park to take family pictures (more on that later), and to attend my mom's company sponsored Easter-egg hunt. There weren't many kids who showed up- so the ones that did made a haul! Even Doodlebug got in on the fun!

Friday, March 14, 2008

No more Soda :-(

At my doctor appointment yesterday I received a very stern talking to. She was none too happy to hear that I don't drink enough water (and she said ice doesn't count... still can't figure that out- doesn't ice melt into water???). She said I can drink crystal light if I don't like the taste of water, so that's what I've been drinking today (along with plain ol' H2O). I just have a hard time wrapping my head around what the difference is between sugar free crystal light and sugar free soda (other than the carbonated water...) But a second round of antibiotics for a second UTI is enough to convince me I have got to do something different... Now just to get over the withdrawl and headache...

Thursday, March 13, 2008

No fun trip to Pueblo...well- not all fun...

I guess it will be fun to go eat somewhere different (and nicer) for a change- but the reason we have to go to Pueblo is a little bit of an inconvenience. Especially on a Thursday... I have pretty convincing signs/symptoms of another UTI (I had one over Christmas too...) they are not fun, and I haven't had these in many, many years... So frustrating...
Anyway, I have an appointment with my regular doctor this afternoon. After being seen at the rural clinic after Christmas, I will NEVER go there again- it was very scary... I'll take the extra sick time off work to drive to Pueblo to see my doctor- who has been my doctor since I was little, probably since I was 10 years old or so. I love my doctor, and dread the day I have to find a new one...
Hmm- now where to eat a yummy dinner? Too many choices- I hate having to choose only one! :-)

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Taking walks...

I think I got overly excited about being able to go walking today. My second walk did me in for a while... :-(

Sunshine & Spring..

I am soooo very thankful that Spring is on the way!! The last two days I have been able to get out and take a walk, which I can't do in the winter (it is tooo cold for me :-) Even though is takes me time to adjust to Daylight savings time (and losing an hour of sleep) I am glad that I will be able to be outside in the sunshine more and drive with my sunroof open and be more active (and maybe lose a little weight :-)

See what others are grateful for on this Gratituesday!

Friday, March 7, 2008

Time for a change...

How do you like it??? :-)

Thursday, March 6, 2008

For Ellie...

I realized it's been two months since I've done this- needed a new one (or two) for all the neices :-)

Love you all!
Auntie Suez :-)

Monday, March 3, 2008

Home Computers in 1954...

The caption reads:
"Scientists from the RAND Corporation have created this model to illustrate how a “home computer” could look like in the year 2004. However the needed technology will not be economically feasible for the average home. Also the scientists readily admit that the computer will require not yet invented technology to actually work, but 50 years from now scientific progress is expected to solve these problems. With teletype interface and the Fortran language, the computer will be easy to use."

I am so thankful computers have evolved the way they have, and NOT like they predicted in this article! I don't know how I'd survive without the almost instant contact with my family and buddies that email and blogging affords me!!!

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Below the belt...

That's where satan likes to throw those sucker punches...As if doubting myself wasn't enough- now he makes me doubt my role in the church. I was alredy doubting that, ever since I've moved, I don't quite feel like I fit in at the church down here, and my home church in Pueblo (the one I grew up in, since I was two weeks old) has changed so much since we moved down here that I feel more and more like a visitor everytime we go there.
So today, there was a men's meeting with our newly installed elders at 2p. Then, at 5p was supposed to be a ladies meeting (why they couldn't coordinate better is beyond me) to discuss the planning of a Ladies Day to be hosted at our church. Two of the women even made sure to ask me this morning if I was coming to it. Well, I was the ONLY one who showed up for the meeting. Everyone else got a phone call that it had been cancelled.
And my head says I know that it was an honest mistake, but my heart says "Why bother? Why try? I'm never gonna feel like I belong here..." But I want my heart to not feel that way, but I guess the baggage I carry will make this a fight I'll have with myself over and over, satan knows where to hit the hardest...

Crazy times...

It was 70+ degrees here yestrday- it was beautiful & WARM!!! It's snowing outside now... this time of year is soooo crazy when it comes to weather. Add to that the crazy amount of flu cases this year and it makes for quite a bit of craziness. The nursing homes and hospital in our county all have restrictions on who can come and go- and everyone coming has to put on masks and gloves or sanitizer. There were 7 gone from my office with this crud on Monday. Thankfully, G and I seem to be over the worst of it (the head nurse where G works said it sounded like he had two different viruses working on him- that's G for you- has to be difficult! :-)
The bugs were all sick Friday night at my parents' though, so hopefully we didn't expose ourselves to another round. Taterbug coughed to hard that she urped all over Bug-a-boo! :-0 I was very proud of G, too, he didn't urp when he heard/saw/smelt it (he was sitting right behind them).

I need to ask for your prayers right now. I have had a rough week, emotionally. I have felt like I have been a failure at everything I have attempted this week. My house was in total disarry (G- my wonderful husband, helped a lot yesterday in getting it back in order), my itty bitty paycheck makes me feel like I need to find another job to help get some of my old medical bills paid off, overall it's just been a discouraging week for me. Please pray that I can get a better grip on things, and be more organized so that I don't feel so overwhelmed all the time.